- Ya know, after the post below, I did not think that things could jump back. I WAS WRONG...
- I had to get some wires for the subwoofer that I have, yet have not been able hook up for almost a year. in a last ditch effort to restore my living room, I had to go to Radio Shack to get the necessities... As most know, Radio Shack as never had what you wanted right out in the open to find, and ask for help is impossible, unless you can distract that 70-yr-old man, shuffling around the dingy carpet... And as for me, I have been in no mood to deal with anyone. The good news was... I was in and out within 10 minutes!! And I received help from someone who actually worked there!! She was kind and helpful, and actually looked as if she wanted to help. So, after that, I say thank you to Radio Shack for pulling me from my shitty outlook....
"Also, she very well could of been fuckable!"
Life is a little bit normal now...
- Ya know, I have been going through some interesting things lately, and to sum up those events, all I can simply say is...
"What the fuck has happen with today?"
- While that may seem broad, I would rather keep this somewhat open because God only knows who is reading this as I carry on with my daily routine. I can say that I can been relatively okay with common day things in the world... Hell, I thought things were looking up in the world, maybe even for me. Alas, how wrong I was to think that things can come easily to another. I have been trying to roam around today to find a small glimmer of hope, that could put me back onto my feet... ya know, something that tells me things are not that bad? After many different places, and many, many different outlooks, life is truly turning to shit.
- Okay, I would state that I went out the other night on what would have been described as a date.... not that it was. Basically, I was slightly head over feet for someone, yet when all said and done, the expected did happen, and once again I am left here trying to sum up things, after facing "friendly rejection"... wouldn't that be an oxymoron? Anyway, since then, I have just been down about this shit, and haven't felt the need for much. In hopes to bring myself back up, I have had two phone coversations,one bitter and one "movie-of-the-week" insane, and I have begun to see that things, much larger than myself are unraveling, causing a shockwave and cruelty and resentment down the path. While most of these thoughts do not come directly from my situation, they do have a hand in it... So it feels as if I can talk to no one about this, not without fucking the dog some more.
- So, for the time, being I shall be in this little bitter spot, mainly because I am still looking for hope, but I am not seeing much in that fashion. Maybe I will get lucky, and someone will surprise me... however, I don't see that as a great possiblity because people are no longer spontaneous and God forbid they do something outside the common nature that every magazine and every fucking television show has embedded into their warped sense of reality... It really just....
...BLOWS...
Don't worry, I'm not gone yet...